Monday, May 10, 2010

The love of God that cries

over the past weekend I have understood a little more about the love of God. you know that question we all seem to have?
How could God still love me just the same after I've made such a huge mistake? I've made such a mess, and I know I've hurt Him; how does He hurt, love, and feel anger toward someone all at the same time?
There is a couple I know (not the couple you're thinking of, it's another couple) who has been together the last couple years and everyone just knew that one day they would get married. Even if they didn't end up staying together everyone knew that they would always be best friends and they would always be there for each other, after all, they already were. They were so different but they worked well together, things were hard at times but they made it work, they made THEM work (if you know what I mean) and you could tell that they loved each other.
well recently the unthinkable happened: they broke up. The term was thrown around "they're taking a break" but once you really talked to them you knew that that wasn't it. this was for real the end. and when I talked to one of them I just couldn't help but feel hurt, disappointment, almost anger, I wanted to just cry. I knew these 2, I knew that they were both made for greatness because I could already see greatness in them now. God is going to use them later in life but He is already using them now.
And yet here they were, hurting each other, the very person that they loved. yes it hurts, yes it's confusing, yes sometimes life is just hard. but there is a time to morn and a time to move on. I know that you were made for greatness because I have already seen it at work within you, and yet here you are stooping to the lower ways you know won't get you anywhere! yes it's easier than doing what is write but it won't help anyone in the long run. As soon as I found out about this I felt it, and as time has past and I have had time to really think about it I have realized something, several somethings actually: 1. I still love these 2 greatly, God can still use them and they can still grow Him, I am still seeing how God is using them. 2. I am reminded that they are humans, mistakes will happen, and that is ok, I allow myself to put too much faith in people and in the end I get hurt, but it is a good reminder of how human and frail we all are, we will all make mistakes and that isn't bad, it's when we refuse to learn from and move on from those mistakes that problems happen. 3. there are people all around who are capable of GREAT things if they would only let God have His way. we can't do this on our own, we need God and other people who have been before where we are now to lead us.
Is there anything in all the world that breaks the heart of God more than seeing His child stoop to lesser things when it's "easier" than what God has for us? The love is still there, but so is the broken heart

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